you're the one for me,

I am so tired. I repp'ed a clothing company at the big Atl Market this weekend and made like $700 in like 4 days which is amazing.I just worked a shitton in 4 days and I am so tired. I have to make a muslin today, which is like a prototype of my outfit. I haven't done jack shit on it and it is due at 8 a.m. tomorrow morning. Ugh.

NYC tomorrow with cutebutt.

ben & jerry's double fudge brownie.


the end.

this is the worst that i have ever felt in my life. the people that i thought i would be able to turn to if i needed them probably aren't there now. i did what i feel was best for me. i feel lost and helpless and don't know what to do. i feel horrible for causing so much pain and miserable in both of our bodies and minds. i am sure one day this will be easier, but right now it sucks. i wish i knew what to say or do to help any of the pain or helplessness go away for both of us. i wish i knew. i am so sorry. forever and ever i will be so sorry. i am so fucking sorry.

school started. blehhhhhhh.

x-mas card? want one? leave an address!

rip elenor.

i walked to class in the snow. i had my advising appointment. i am taking sewing next semester. psyched! seeing my boi this weekend. double psyched!

i have the best boyfriend. i have an awesome life.

i am going home for some of fall break. i miss my familia. i am hanging out with melissa tonight. and seeing melissa p thursday. we shall be prepared for chaos. someone in my house is playing nickleback very loudly. could i hate one band more?

this weekend was insane. i ended up with 7$ and a pumpkin and some new friends. i had so much fun. excpet when i was drunk and talking to derek and cried. then i felt bad. and in the morning. i def felt bad then. 4 days till i see my baby. two more days of class then a couple day break. i think i like this fall bread thing. esp since this time last year, i met derek. almost exactly a year ago!

i am drunk. i had so much fun tongith i miss derek. i miss home. i cried and dint mean too. i won free money at mountaineer madness. 7$!!!!

it is kind of chilly today. it was beautiful outside when i woke up but there is a very chilly wind blowing making everything cold. i am sick. i want somebody to come and take care of me...baby, thats you. i dont have anything to do till sat morning at 10 when i have to be at work. i dont have class tomorrow at all and im done for the day today. maybe x will want to cut my hair... ima ask her. i jsut want something new. any suggestions?

i am working 3-11 today. AHH!!!!
i just ate lunch. x is cutting my hair tomorrow afternoon. it is going to be a sharper cut in the back i believe and my bangs are going to be shorter. i think. im not sure yet, i havent decided. any suggestions?

hung out with ben and x today. seperate occasions, but hanging out nonetheless. talked to adam on saturday! seeing my baby in 2 days.

i love charlotte. i love going home. most of all, i love my boy.



( dayyuuuummm )

woke up with derek. that makes my day better.
went home hung out with mom for a couple hours, went to forever 21 for abotu 3 hours total. got a bunch of long sleeve t's and two hoodies. they will come in handy.
hung out with amandaB.
derek, vivian and i went to athens. i love that place.
http://www.charlotte.com:80/mld/charlotte/news/15589301.htm
i am really getting old, because at 115 i was falling asleep and for the life of me couldnt stay awake.
im going to bed. hotel party? what?
tomorrow awaits. shopping with my honey bun.

im home. lets hang out.

what if i came home today?